we had a super relaxing day. so relaxing that i was asleep by 7...even though i didn't have to be up for work this morning. Moxie never really cares though. she's up for food as soon as it seems like someone (namely, me) is stirring. of course, once i'm up, i'm up. she can fall back asleep, with her full belly, and get up again around 9 or 10!
so here i am. back at the ol' computer, killing the wee hours of the morning. current time: 4:21 am.
but let's focus on the positive.
yesterday was just about the most perfect weather for January 1. cold. breezy. sunny.
we met up with a couple of my very best friends and walked Coast Guard Beach out in Eastham. surfers were out. people were walking their dogs. once the wind died a bit, i even saw a woman in her beach chair, planning to spend a fair chunk of time soaking up some rays (face only, she was still pretty bundled up).
|Eastham, Ma: january 1|
the rest of the day was pretty lazy. i was going to rake the leaves up from around the carport, but i just didn't want to. instead, we just hung out. watched speed racer and i colored a little. really lovely day.
Today, i'm spending the morning with my mom. she's headed back to michigan on tuesday, and i'm back to work tomorrow, so it's our last chance to hang until the next visit. and we never know when that might be. and we have to get her to the beach before she leaves!
here comes some honesty. i previously stated somewhere that i was going to try harder this year to focus on one or two things and let the little things kind of fall into place wherever they can or will.
but that's just not who i am. why in the world did i think i could just be okay with that? on the very first day of the year, i decide that my organization and focus is going to start with binders or notebooks for my major projects or goals. so, first thing's first...what are my major projects or goals?
welcome to the new year, first list!
list of 16 things to accomplish this year. not bad...considering probably half of them should've been done years ago. and probably a quarter of them are kind of on-going lifestyle changes. leaving me with a list of about 3 or 4 major projects/goals. not bad! but those few things take up a fair chunk of time. which means, on top of the 'project' binders...i'm going to need a separate notebook (or planner) to schedule which project gets how much time, which days. which means, i'll also need to schedule time for scheduling! i wish i could be the kind of person who just goes from moment to moment and says, 'oh, hey! i think i'll go work out!' then 'i feel, at this very moment, that i'd like to go fix that treadmill!' or 'mmm...that lunch was great! now i can't think of anything else to do...i'm gonna go convert my front drum brakes to disc!'
all this stuff needs scheduling for me to get any of it done! including eating!!
i've never not been aware of how ridiculous it sounds...but it's who i am. it's how i must live. and even knowing it...i manage to not get shit done.
more truth: i get the most joy out of making the lists...not actually crossing things off. and there's the problem with my system.
but aren't we all, always and forever more, works in progress?