Saturday, March 5, 2016

BIRTHDAY MONTH!

Five days into march.

We've already had to reschedule moxie's 3 month check up, after her last CT scan, because the doctor we were seeing and really liked, is leaving the practice. this appointment may decide if we will continue to drive to waltham for 'check ups' when we have perfectly capable doctors just a few miles away. she was also due for her annual shots and whatnot and got a clean bill of health. i think we will always sound stuffed up and nasally now...but now she just sounds like a normal pug, i guess.

tap is the most amazingly fun thing i've done in a long time. i'm sure it helps that the class is run by a friend from early derby days and 2 of the other 3 students are my close friends, but whatever the reasons, i love it. we are looking forward to continuing on, but i, of course, am forced to decide how to divide my precious free time. no, i know i am not the only person in the world who has to prioritize social engagements and things of that nature; but, i am not the type to fill my schedule to the max and be okay sacrificing my 'me' time. my days must include a couple hours of alone time or i will go insane. especially on work days when i wake up to 8 hours of human interactions that sometimes make me want to question why we don't have sterilization laws.

car parts are flooding in. i have (i think....i hope) the stuff i need to get the suspension and brakes back on and in order. that will have to wait until tap ends in a few weeks, so i can devote full days to working on it. if you're at all curious about that project, i have a separate blog to chronicle the madness, here.

still not getting much skating in, these days. missing derby because of it, but i'm sure it's just because i want to skate...not necessarily get back into that scene. next warm day, i must get out on the trail or park. this crazy new england weather is so back and forth, as winter makes way for spring. 50 degrees one day to snow showers the next. and it seems, no matter how warm the air, it has been so blustery that the cold wind isn't terribly encouraging for outings (for me, anyway).

back at (mostly) my 6-day workout weeks. it's nice feeling like i'm getting back in shape again...sweating away all my troubles. well, most of my troubles.

relay stuff is also keeping me busy. i just wish i could think of another way to raise some money, outside of the team events. but, i just don't have the time i had last year and i feel like i'm back in the non-creative swing of life. that part of my life cycle where i look at my studio and think, 'ah, hell. i'm just gonna sell off all my supplies and stop pretending i have time or desire for this hobby. it would free up a whole extra room of the house if i cleaned it out, too...could be my new dance studio.

but, of course, my mind changes so rapidly and frequently that i don't dare make a move.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

January 30...

...and how far have i gotten on my list?
well, I'm 18 days (today) into my quest to return to the habit of working out, daily. they say 21 days to make something habit. once i get there, then i'm not free and clear, because i also read that it takes 30 days to make that habit a 'lifestyle'. the good news is that i've switched back to a workout program that i have proven to work for me. I love doing it and look forward to putting that dvd in and getting my turbofire on. Just to up the ante, i've decided that 'i want to fit into that dress again' is not really enough motivation for me anymore. i don't really have trouble buying a bigger size if that's the one that fits (i do have trouble spending money on clothes, in general, though, so fitting into the stuff i have is so much more appealing!). instead, i've put my mind to running a 5k in march. a physical goal that i will actually be proud to achieve.
speaking of health, our little old lady, Moxie, got a clean bill of health at her follow up appointment.
her tumor (shown as the shaded area in her nasal cavity in the picture on the right) blocked all of her right nostril and most of her left! as you can see from the picture on the left, all the black area in the center of her face is her clear nasal cavity. side note: i love her giant bug eyes!
she never got sick or weird during her treatments, and since the tumor has shrunk (just a tiny bit is visible, when the doctor showed us the scan farther back into her skull) she is back to puppy mode! she sleeps while we're gone and then just wants to play all night. yes, this little chapter in our lives cost us a pretty penny, but how could a person not find a way to save their baby? totally worth not getting a tv without tubes and seriously cutting the alcohol budget!

and speaking of budgets (wow my segues are really working out for me today!), i'm still focusing as much time as i can on getting the Barracuda running. (here's the link to that blog, if you have no idea what i'm talking about)

oh, speaking of Barracuda...my sister and a good friend of mine are going to see Heart this summer, at the melody tent!! i would LOOOOOVE to have the car fixed to drive us to the show, but we'll see how quickly things move once i'm actually putting parts back on the car.

ah...my sister...she has convinced me to take a trip to Detroit again this summer. that's 2 years in a row. it's becoming tradition. this time we're going to see some Detroit Derby Girls roller derby action! yay.

ooh...skating...there's a new park in Chatham that is tiny, but sooo smooth and a promising little venue for a silly day of fun. we went to check it out on a day when the temp was 29 degrees and colder than that with the windchill. there were ice patches all over the concrete. it was the day i finally got up the nerve to go down a ramp! after several trips to various skate parks, i finally got the thrill of careening to certain death. but i didn't die. instead, i kept my knees bent, back flat, and let the ramp in front of me slow my speed as i did a very ungraceful little transition out and back onto the ...ICE!!! i didn't die.

not a great segue here...except these girls i skate with are still (and always) fighting the good fight against cancer...by way of volunteering and raising money. also this summer, i'm taking part in the Relay for Life again, with my Rogue-Bot pals. we have a country line dancing event planned for later this month. we're all saving our bottle return money. we're begging our friends and family for donations. Jen's giving doggie baths again, this month. we're planning, hopefully, to do another event at the red nun in D-port again, since they were so gracious to let us set up there last year.
more on all that later, as details are finalized. but, if you're interested in helping, here are some useful links:
our team page (where you can donate or even join us!) plus my PERSONAL page (last year, my friends helped me raise about $800!! i'd love to blow past that, but i'm still shooting for my initial $500 goal)
the line dancing event page
our facebook page, to keep in the loop of future fundraising events
jen's dog washing event (get details here)
any donation helps. simple shares with your family and friends helps. joining us for our fun events helps.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

January 2, 2016

here we are! into the new year...one full day in the books.
we had a super relaxing day. so relaxing that i was asleep by 7...even though i didn't have to be up for work this morning. Moxie never really cares though. she's up for food as soon as it seems like someone (namely, me) is stirring. of course, once i'm up, i'm up. she can fall back asleep, with her full belly, and get up again around 9 or 10!
so here i am. back at the ol' computer, killing the wee hours of the morning. current time: 4:21 am.
but let's focus on the positive.
yesterday was just about the most perfect weather for January 1. cold. breezy. sunny.
we met up with a couple of my very best friends and walked Coast Guard Beach out in Eastham. surfers were out. people were walking their dogs. once the wind died a bit, i even saw a woman in her beach chair, planning to spend a fair chunk of time soaking up some rays (face only, she was still pretty bundled up).
Eastham, Ma: january 1
then we decided, since we were already out that way...and it was nearly noon...that we'd hit Guapo's for some mexican food and cocktails (for me and hubs, anyway). 
the rest of the day was pretty lazy. i was going to rake the leaves up from around the carport, but i just didn't want to. instead, we just hung out. watched speed racer and i colored a little. really lovely day.

Today, i'm spending the morning with my mom. she's headed back to michigan on tuesday, and i'm back to work tomorrow, so it's our last chance to hang until the next visit. and we never know when that might be. and we have to get her to the beach before she leaves!

here comes some honesty. i previously stated somewhere that i was going to try harder this year to focus on one or two things and let the little things kind of fall into place wherever they can or will.
but that's just not who i am. why in the world did i think i could just be okay with that? on the very first day of the year, i decide that my organization and focus is going to start with binders or notebooks for my major projects or goals. so, first thing's first...what are my major projects or goals?
welcome to the new year, first list!
list of 16 things to accomplish this year. not bad...considering probably half of them should've been done years ago. and probably a quarter of them are kind of on-going lifestyle changes. leaving me with a list of about 3 or 4 major projects/goals. not bad! but those few things take up a fair chunk of time. which means, on top of the 'project' binders...i'm going to need a separate notebook (or planner) to schedule which project gets how much time, which days. which means, i'll also need to schedule time for scheduling! i wish i could be the kind of person who just goes from moment to moment and says, 'oh, hey! i think i'll go work out!' then 'i feel, at this very moment, that i'd like to go fix that treadmill!' or 'mmm...that lunch was great! now i can't think of anything else to do...i'm gonna go convert my front drum brakes to disc!'
all this stuff needs scheduling for me to get any of it done! including eating!! 
i've never not been aware of how ridiculous it sounds...but it's who i am. it's how i must live. and even knowing it...i manage to not get shit done. 
more truth: i get the most joy out of making the lists...not actually crossing things off. and there's the problem with my system.

but aren't we all, always and forever more, works in progress?